return to blog

It’s easy to write here. Start markdown file in editor. Write some detritus of stuff. Maybe add a photo. Write some more. Figure out there was something I wanted to say. Should I just delete the cruft? I don’t think so. Cruft is valuable. I can write cruft here with morning coffee or an evening of barely watching some historic documentary. Then since it all syncs all around I have it all when I return to it next day or that afternoon. Or whenever. So today I uncovered seminal truths or questions which maybe are not so much cruft.

• what is love without trust. Does it even exist? Since I don’t really know what either is but have felt the absence of one just then caused pain in the other I don’t think I can have love without it.
• similarly what is like and love? What are the differences. Tell me a definition that works without using the word in it. I know I can’t. But I do know a thing. To me liking is a day to day thing. A person does this and makes choices about it all the time. Loving seems eternal. I feel love still for my ex-wife even after her actions removed the liking. She created harm day to day and year to year. I dealt with it. Finally left. Then I really left.
• is liking and loving different culturally? Like what my wife now feels when she tells me she loves me and how I feel when I tell her. I don’t know but I feel there sometimes are light-years of difference. I cannot name the things. Just like I cannot define like or love.

So perhaps where I am at is what one person said somewhere,

I don’t know what love is. I just know when it’s gone.

I doubt the love went away. I also don’t think you can define it by it’s opposite. Maybe it just changes deep within. Becomes this other facet of some diamond in the soul.

it’s a mixed up muddled up world

We live in. At least that’s what the Kinks said about their historic wonder song Lola. I am the least of those understanding it all. I do wonder about things. Sometimes do as Socrates bid us do. Examine them. For me it’s writing here. Returning to blog.